Being Apart.Saturday, April 16, 2016
With the end of the school year approaching, I can't help but be excited. I will no longer have stress escalating as deadlines approach and sleepless nights as I finish last minute assignments. Instead of spending the day as a hermit crab in my dorm room, I can spend the day as a mermaid at the beach. The one thing that is holding me back though from this excitement is being away from all the people I have deepened my relationships with this year. Hands down the hardest one of all will be the relationship I have had with my boyfriend. Last year after my freshman year, it was difficult being away from my college friends in the summer. But that will not prepare me for this upcoming summer being away from boyfriend. This is our first summer being apart, and I honestly don't know how I will make it through. The longest we've been apart is 2 weeks during winter break. And honestly, that was extremely hard. Everyday I counted down the days until I got to see his blue eyes again. Those two weeks went by soooo slowly. So how am I going to make it through 4 months? That is going to seem like an eternity. Sure, we've made some plans for a few weekend trips, but that going to only be 8 days out of 122 days. But I guess there's not much more we can do considering we both are going to be working full time and are living almost 4 hours away from each other.
This weekend, he went home to do some work, and I'm missing him more than ever. With this beautiful shorts weather, all I want is him to be here so we can go on a walk, play some tennis, and just sit outside doing homework together. He's been gone before for weekends, but this weekend feels different. I guess it's because we've grown our relationship so strongly this past month that it just makes goodbyes that much harder. I know that I'm going to be bawling my eyes out when the time comes to say goodbye for summer. Heck...I'm getting teary-eyed right now just thinking about it. So I guess we'll just have to see how that goes. And I guess I'll just have to make the most of the remaining time we have together. Though, it's hard (can we count how many times I've said hard in this post!?!) since we're both swamped with homework and projects. And we're both the most productive apart. It...Just...Sucks!!!