Happy Birthday To This Cutie

Monday, August 22, 2016

While playing with barbies, I asked my niece if she wished this certain baby was her sister. She shook her head no and responded, "No, I wish you were my sister." That pretty much sums up our relationship. She's more than just a niece, she holds a special place in my heart.

When she was a newborn, her mom and dad, brother, and herself all lived with us for a couple of months. So from at a young age, I was instantly part of her life. There were times where I would babysit while her parents went out on a Friday night. This would entail me feeding her a bottle, calming down her wailing, and even rocking her to sleep. Watching those eye drift to sleep was so peaceful. And having her grab hold of my finger in her tiny palm, melted my heart. I kept thinking about what should be like when's older. What color will her hair be? What will her voice sound like? Will she have a cute chuckle? What sport will she play?

As she grew older, I would watch her crawl and eventually build up the courage to walk to me. And from then on, the babbles started. I was pretty much the only one that could decipher them. I still remember the first time she said my name. Restless from school, I closed my eyes on the couch while my parents watched my niece, still somewhat aware of my surroundings. She wanted my attention, so she started shaking me. I didn't respond. So she blurted out my name. I instantly opened my eyes and my face filled with a smile.

From then on, she continued to grow even more. It started with learning colors, animals sounds, foods, to practicing ice skating, swimming, and gymnastics. And now she even talks about her latest crush. I always remember thinking about the future and what she'll be doing next. I never fully enjoyed the stage she way in because I always wanted her to keep growing up. Part of me wishes she would go back to the helpless little infant who I would cradle. I know that's not possible though. And each year gets harder and harder as we drift apart.

As stupid as it sounds, one of my biggest fears freshman year was that she would forget me. Like I said before, our bond is so strong because we see each other quite often. So the thought of being away from her broke my heart. About two months into my freshman year though, my parents came up with her for the weekend, and we all went to Mall of America. We went on the log chute together (my favorite ride as a kid) over and over again. We were waiting inline for the last round, and she said "This is the BEST DAY EVER!!! Do you have to go back to college?" It honestly broke my heart because I wanted to just tell her "No, no, I don't" even though I knew that wasn't realistic. I just wanted my life to go back to where it was: with her all the time!

And that goodbye that weekend was even harder. After being my model for a photography assignment, it was time to part our ways. She climbed in my bunk and said "I'm sleeping here for the night," Truth be told, I wished she would've. But my mom made her give me a hug and say goodbye. I couldn't even manage saying goodbye to her, because I knew I would ball my eyes out.
As soon as they closed my dorm door, that's exactly what I did. I felt that same emptiness that I felt before I left for college.

I've gotten better though at being away from her. Now-a-days, I only really see her once or twice a summer because of her busy schedule. And that honestly breaks my heart, but maybe it's whats best for me, so I don't get as attached again.

It's been nice though watching her interact with my boyfriend. She loves to tease him and he gives it right back to her!

I don't think anyone will understand how much this little girl means to me. My best friends, my parents, and my boyfriend cannot compete with the love I have for her. SHE'S. JUST. SO. SPECIAL. TO. ME. I don't know what I would do without her or where I would be in life. Love you pumpkin and happy birthday!

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  1. It sounds like you have a lovely relationship, happy bday to your niece!! Xx


  2. First - the i wish you were my sister made me my eyes fill with tears that was beautiful. Second- this is how I feel regarding my nephew/Godson, so I get it. Third - she is a stunner! my goodness! Happy Birthday to her

    Life is just Rosie

    1. Awww your comment is so sweet! When she said that, it made my eyes fill with tears too. I'm glad you have a great relationship with your nephew.

  3. These photos are so cute


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