Celebrating the 4th of July

Friday, July 08, 2016

I got to spend this past weekend with my boyfriend. He told me he had a surprise for me and  wouldn't tell me what it was until Friday night.I asked if I should bring my camera along for this surprise. He told me not to unless I wanted to ruin my camera. So I had a general idea of what we would be doing, especially since he told me to bring my swimsuit.

Turns out, my surprise was us going kayaking. This was one of the first times that I've done any water related activities. I was a little disappointed at the weather at first. It seemed a little chilly. However, once we got to the lake that we were going to be kayaking at, I realized it warm enough to take off my shirt and just wear my bikini top.

My boyfriend pushed my boat into the water, to give it a kick start. At that point I was freaking out. I had no control over the boat. And it seemed like it was going farther and farther out. On top of that, my boyfriend wasn't in the water yet, so I couldn't lean on him for assistance. I kept thinking I was going to flip over and be dunked into this not so clean water. I wasn't wearing a life jacket, so somehow I would have to survive by floating. At that point, I wanted to get out right away and call it quits. However then my boyfriend finally got his boat in the water. He assisted me on the right way to paddle and steer my boat.  I felt a little bit more comfortable then. And about 5 minutes into it, a smile was put back onto my face and excitement filled my insides. It was so peaceful to just sit back, relax, and let the wind/current take the kayak. And of course I had to ruin the moment by purposely splashing water at  him......I'm such a child. I love that he takes me on adventures like these, since my family never does anything that exciting. So I'm enjoying trying new experiences and going out of my comfort zone with him. We ended the afternoon/evening by going golfing with his friends. I looked out the window as the truck drove on winding roads and country music blasted. As cheesy as it sounds, I just meditated on life as we made our way to the golf course.

The next day, we met up with his dad at the driving range. I'm still one of the worst golfers out there, so I made a complete fool of myself. And a 5 year old next to me, showed me up. She was ah-may-zing! It's frustrating that I can't seem to get down the basics of golf. All I want is to be able to play a round of golf with my family and my boyfriend....but I'm not at that skill level yet. His dad told me, to not take it seriously though, and just have fun. He then gave a more serious talk to the both of us just about life in general. And it made me excited about the future.I know my boyfriend and I have a little while before we graduate and officially become adults. And who knows what direction life will take us. I can't help but wonder what our future will look like though. And I love that every time I see his dad, he talks about something different. The first time is was about politics. The next time it was all about being goofy and cracking jokes. And this time it was on a serious note. He definitely is someone that is interesting to talk to.

Finally, on the 4th of July, my boyfriend challenged my brother to a game of golf. And let's just say my brother got his a*s whipped. Since it was getting late and my boyfriend still had to drive back that night, he didn't stay for dinner. Instead when we got to my house, we said our goodbyes. We stood in my garage while I held my weekend luggage in my hand. He kissed me and said "just three more weeks." I hugged him real tight and turned my head away. I could feel my throat closing up and tears forming. I blinked real fast trying to brush away the tears, but there was no hope. I don't think he noticed until I kissed him and brushed away the tear running down. He then told me not to cry because we'll see each other real soon. I knew he was right, but I just didn't want to let go of him.  When you have such a good time with someone, you don't want to see them go, especially someone that you love. I wanted to tell him how much fun I had over the weekend and how much I appreciated him driving down to pick me up and drop off. But I couldn't talk without balling my eyes out. So instead I settled for one last hug and kiss.

And that night I cried like I have never cried before. This goodbye felt different than the other ones... I just can't explain it. I so badly want us both to be done with our internships, so we can actually spend the summer together instead of  just a few days out of the month. I know that's not going to happen, but I can only wish! And at least summer is half over. So then once school starts, I won't be separated from him anymore.....that is unless we get piled on with homework.

How did you spend your 4th of July?

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  1. Kayaking is so so fun!! Hope you ended up enjoying it!

    xo | Tessa

    1. I enjoyed it a lot Tessa! I would definitely do it it again :)

  2. Sounds like a really fun weekend. So sad that you had to say goodbye. Just thinking about being in a long distance relationship for any amount of time makes me sad. Can't wait for you two to be back together again!


    1. Awww you're so sweet Becca! I appreciate it!

  3. Sounds so fun! I went kayaking once years ago but I definitely need to go again! Btw, I love your outfit in the pics <3

    xo Raina

  4. sounds so fun!!! You look gorgeous!
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  5. Sounds like you had a great time :)) BTW you look stunning Kate xx

  6. Gorgeous ! I love your necklace.


    Anela from Fashion Roulette


    1. Thank you Anela! The necklace is actually from Kohl's from a couple of years ago


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